This is a recent personal experience. Sometimes I go into Self to explore. This is one of those episodes.
I started with the junction point, the transition point between one thought and another, between one syllable and another, between sleeping and waking, between the absolute and the relative, between my consciousness and god’s. Our lives are full of junction points. They are everywhere we turn. I find it possible to simply rest at will within those gaps and experience either a blend of both realities as a combination or neither reality as in pure nothingness. So, in this one occasion I did just that. I peered into the gap independent of two items. Just the gap alone. Here’s where the journey took my awareness.
The gap itself was experienced as an inner light in the form of a staff initially running the length of my spine but extending beyond my body limits. Going deep into the ground on one end and high into the sky on the other. Energy flowed up fast. I focused more on that energy. It seemed to have a mind of its own, sometimes coming as a wave or pulse, delivering a more intense dose then a lighter dose but always flowing. I notice that through thought alone I could constrict the vessel/channel causing the energy to flow more forcefully and intensely or relax the channel to slow down the flow. I chose to constrict the channel and see what would happen.
The energy became very intense, and my body started to bounce in place, I was sitting in a chair, so I lifted my feet off the floor and let my body continue to bounce. In my internal observation of the channel, I detected no blockage to the flow, and I could experience each of the chakras being feed from this energy flow. At some point the heart chakra started to transform and grow into a clean bluish white light generating a super stillness with overtones of a light feeling of love with a strong feeling of peace. My awareness was attracted to this space which had grown to perhaps 5 feet in diameter extending beyond my body’s limits. I didn’t want to leave this reality. Felt like I could stay there forever. After a long time, I explored again.
Deep inside this peaceful brilliance was the faint tracings of a structure. Initially it came on as geometrical in nature but with a sense of liveliness like subtle waves in some way we could probably call it, scared geometry. The actual lines of structure were like ribbons moving to create a spiral structure. Within the ribbons was some kind of messaging and the whole thing was very colorful particularly red and gold. The flowing colorful structure was around my body but also spiraled into my body’s core, yet somehow enlivening every cell. It was/is the perfect me. My individual blueprint. I could/can put awareness on it and it comes to life, enriching my spiritual form which in turn enriches my physical form.
Although, I was experiencing these fine details of this structure which I’m calling my individual vedic self, I was also aware of the pure consciousness in my expanded heart chakra that gave rise to this experience and the flow of kundalini which gave rise to the love/peace in my heart. Nothing was left out. Its like being able to let one’s awareness enjoy each individual instrument in an orchestra without losing the symphony. Beauty in every part as well as the whole. Full appreciation.
Peace. Peace. Peace.