Your new enlightenment - after the honeymoon. Usually what one finds is, it's hard to be part of the old world or habits after your awakening. It’s kind of an issue of honesty. Yet... What about those responsibilities? Internal beauty. Yet... External confusion. Am I being honest to myself? Or do I need to take care of the others? Maybe now that I’m enlightened I really don’t need to be on the planet anymore? Now that's really dark but it happens.
Lots to think about and that’s the problem. Thinking.
The new world you are now a part of is huge and plays by a different set of rules. One being life is now non-linear. You will have to find a way to be comfortable with uncertainty. You are living in the Now, the Moment. Planning now takes a backseat to the Moment. Planning is based in something of a future nature usually based on something in the past. Past and future don’t disappear, they just aren’t dominant anymore. Again, honesty prevails. The honesty of the Moment.
As you open to your new found infinite nature, options are endless. How do you digest that? You don’t. You can’t. Our nervous systems don’t have the bandwidth.
Here’s where the issues arise for the newly minted enlightened and even the soon to be enlightened.
Due to old habits we attempt to fit our new reality into our old life. Sometimes there’s a match here and there but for the most part it’s a mismatch.
Honestly, the most comfortable solution is just "Letting Go". Allow yourself to be a faithful servant to divinity, the giver of the grace which you now realize is your true nature, that beautiful infinity that’s allowed you to know God. Just live baby. Just live.