There is a stage of consciousness development that renders us as everything. The self has grown to the level of Self. A grand Self. A super Self. A Self that allows us to say, "I am Everything and Everything is Me."
But in this search for more, which seems ridiculous, like how can there be more, when one is Everything, nevertheless, ones own nature still feels there is “more” so, yes, the search does continue. And, what is found?
An experience beyond identity. An experience that transcends the Self. Where one is left without identity. A state of "No Self." Emptiness in its purest sense. The state of the Uncreated. Is-ness alone. Pure Existence. That which has no beginning, middle or end. That, that has always been.
At this point in our consciousness development we are left resting in our greatest doubt. We find ourselves asking, “Which is it? What am I? Self or No Self? The answer comes, sometimes not right away. Some souls end up pondering this for quite some time. In some ways it’s never resolved. The answer to, “Am I Self or No Self?” Is, Yes.
If you know my writing, you know I’m fond of these dichotomies, reason being, that is the experience. The entertaining of two opposing realities lived as one. This structure of psychology is nonlinear but true to the actual experience. The coexistence of Self (Everything) with No Self (Nothing) on equal footing. This is an absolute reality. The struggle between them is the ultimate dark night of the soul.
In the venue of academics it’s strange enough to ponder this but when taken into the realm of understanding of one own psychology, it’s impossible but somehow absolutely real.
Give it a moment to sink in.